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lonely
Feb 3, 2008 16:27:47 GMT -5
Post by Linx Exotic on Feb 3, 2008 16:27:47 GMT -5
"But I want to know, really... What do you feel towards me now? Has anything changed... At all?" Still, he needed an answer. What about my love?
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 19:50:04 GMT -5
Post by Aldar and Ellich on Feb 5, 2008 19:50:04 GMT -5
Ellich stopped for a moment then looking at Linx seemingly offended but inside really wasnt. Ellich wondered why Linx kept asking this. It was such a hard subject. "I..."
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 19:53:02 GMT -5
Post by Linx Exotic on Feb 5, 2008 19:53:02 GMT -5
"Look... I don't mean to push you on this... Well, I kinda do. It's an imperative issue for me, obviously... Your saying no provoked my attempted suicide! That's how much this matters to me... I'm losing far too much sleep on this." Just an answer... Even a refusal was better than nothing. Anything to set it in stone.
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:03:33 GMT -5
Post by Aldar and Ellich on Feb 5, 2008 20:03:33 GMT -5
"Thats exactly it. I caused you to kill yourself... If I say no you might do it again, and I dont want that to happen. If I say yes I dont know if I will mean it. Thats why I dont get it anymore. Really I dont know what to do." Ellich turned is eyes away from Linx.
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:06:22 GMT -5
Post by Linx Exotic on Feb 5, 2008 20:06:22 GMT -5
"Huh... Only you can decide whether you mean it or not.. But you can also decide whether you want to mean it or not... If it's what you want, it's within your grasp." Please... Linx couldn't restrain his thoughts. It was all he could do to keep them from becoming words. Please... Love me back!
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:13:37 GMT -5
Post by Aldar and Ellich on Feb 5, 2008 20:13:37 GMT -5
"Nothing seems to be within my grasp these days. This included really. Huh I dont know I guess my mind isnt made up." Ellich stared down at the money on the ground. "You know I cant except this. Just somthing in my natue doesnt allow me to. You can have it back. I'll find another way to make money... really I will."
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:15:19 GMT -5
Post by Linx Exotic on Feb 5, 2008 20:15:19 GMT -5
"I'm not picking that money back up. You know that. You also know that you need it. Don't pull this on me again, you've done it more than enough already. How... How can you keep lying to yourself like this?" Linx saw right into Ellich's mind... Putting up walls. It was time to bust them up.
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:19:48 GMT -5
Post by Aldar and Ellich on Feb 5, 2008 20:19:48 GMT -5
"Lying to myself eh? Thats not true. I dont need the money it just delays what is going to happen later in my life. There is no point in giving me that much it just makes you waster your own money. Either way I am going to end up out of my own home and shop. Lying to myself is not true. I am speaking the truth that this will happen. I am also speaking the truth that I dont know yet. Ok? I havent been able to even think straight for the past week. Give me a break..."
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:22:13 GMT -5
Post by Linx Exotic on Feb 5, 2008 20:22:13 GMT -5
"I would if I could. I'm sorry to press this on you but I need an answer! Now! Not later! I can't stand your running away and waiting until later! I can't live with that, literally!" Please... Linx was about ready to pull his CLOS out and pull the trigger on himself right there. No messing around with blades.
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:30:57 GMT -5
Post by Aldar and Ellich on Feb 5, 2008 20:30:57 GMT -5
"Well then you are going to have to! You have no idea! Got it? You have no idea what I just went through and you have no idea what you just went through! I might not even answer at all! How would that make you feel?"
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:33:42 GMT -5
Post by Linx Exotic on Feb 5, 2008 20:33:42 GMT -5
"It'd make me do this sorta thing again." Taking a few steps back, Linx drew his CLOS, not pointing it at either of them but holding it openly in his paw. "I have more than enough of an idea of what I've gone through and I think I have a pretty good idea of what you've gone through, upon arriving here, at any rate. But no answer is even worse than you saying no... Of course, you saying no would result in my successful suicide, eventually. So no answer does this."
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:39:47 GMT -5
Post by Aldar and Ellich on Feb 5, 2008 20:39:47 GMT -5
Ellich's eyes enlarged as he saw the weapon in Linx's hand. As the memories drifted into his head Ellich's body trembled. All he could muster up was a quiet gurgling noice.
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:42:51 GMT -5
Post by Linx Exotic on Feb 5, 2008 20:42:51 GMT -5
"See," Linx continued, "This is what my wonderful, crazy love does for me. Makes me die. Isn't that just dandy?... And I should be dead already, really, that needs fixing. This is the extent to which you drive me! DO YOU..." The mouse trailed off, unsure of what to say. He thumbed back his weapon's hammer and stared at it for a few seconds.
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:47:24 GMT -5
Post by Aldar and Ellich on Feb 5, 2008 20:47:24 GMT -5
"Linx...." Ellich starred at the barrel of the gun. His body trembled more and more by the second. "Heh I should be dead right now.... I'd say I am a dead beast." Ellich's voice trembled as he talked. He now had a choice he could not get out of. Like linx....or possible die...
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lonely
Feb 5, 2008 20:50:16 GMT -5
Post by Linx Exotic on Feb 5, 2008 20:50:16 GMT -5
"No..." Linx looked at his CLOS again. "Why would I shoot you? I love you, remember? You're not in immediate threat." With this remark, he brought the muzzle of the weapon to his own temple. "I can't stand life without you. I sound like a greedy jerk saying that but it's true. This is the extent to which my love drives me. My wonderful, crazy love."
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