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Post by Dantin 'n' Kade on Jun 14, 2008 23:16:08 GMT -5
*Dantin let out a sigh, Seria seemed bent on being pessimistic about the whole thing.* "Ok, let me ask you this. Do you truly love Kade? Not sorta kinda love but really love him?" *Dantin asked, he was just setting up for what he was going to say next if Seria answered as Dantin expected her to.*
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Post by Linx Exotic on Jun 14, 2008 23:39:56 GMT -5
"I dunno, I... I think so. I dunno. I don't really have anyone now, if I were around you for a month or so after losing my entire family and becoming really unstable in that aspect I'd probably feel the same way towards you... I dunno." She realized that she'd said 'I dunno' three times in her response, but decided not to comment. What she'd just said was a surprise to even herself and she had to think about what it signified as well. I could love someone else that easily. Wow.
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Post by Dantin 'n' Kade on Jun 14, 2008 23:44:47 GMT -5
*Kade jerked his head around to look at Seria with surprise evident on his face. He had thought that their relationship was concrete and what she had said hit him like a sledgehammer. He would have said something if he'd been able to find his voice but speech was not even almost possible at the moment. Instead, he turned on his heel and started out the door. He couldn't stand to be in there any more. He wish he'd never even gone... he almost wished he'd never met Seria just to find out that love wasn't all it was cracked up to be. It just really hurt him, badly.*
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Post by Linx Exotic on Jun 14, 2008 23:57:36 GMT -5
Seria certainly didn't expect Kade to just walk out like that. She just stared as he left, then buried her face in her paw again, but this time out of genuine regret. Despite the truth of her words, she'd displayed them so coldly that she might as well have told Kade to go die in a corner. "I hate this life."
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Post by Dantin 'n' Kade on Jun 15, 2008 0:06:04 GMT -5
*Dantin let out a sigh as Kade exited the room and Seria sat there.* "Well, I think you just ended Kade's. You do realise that he felt genuine love for you and you saying that basicly took everything that it had given him away and slapping him in the face with it. He's gonna be alot worse off now than he's ever been before..."
*Kade in fact, hadn barely gotten anywhere. He was currently slumped against the wall outside of Dantin's room, crying silently. It was the first time he had cried since coming to the fort because he finally felt what true pain was like. It was horrible and he just wished he could end it in whatever way possible.*
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Post by Linx Exotic on Jun 15, 2008 0:09:04 GMT -5
Seria looked up at Dantin, then back at the floor. She'd just ruined everything and she didn't even realize it when she could have stopped it. Now Kade was probably out there contemplating and agreeing with suicide because she'd just said the wrong thing and, as usual, not thought far ahead enough well enough. "I hate this life."
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Post by Dantin 'n' Kade on Jun 15, 2008 0:17:02 GMT -5
"Yeah, I get that." *Dantin said with a hint of anger in his voice.* "The thing is, though, it's not your life your killing. It's Kade's life. If I could walk right now I'd already be out of this room making sure he doesn't do who knows what to himself." *Dantin actually contemplated forcing himself to stand and go get Kade.*
*Kade was trying to think of any way he could end his pain when he realised that he didn't just have to end the pain, he could end it all. It seemed the best choice at the time but to actually do something like that he'd have to get used to the idea of going through with it. Meanwhile, though, he couldn't make himself move from where he was at and he didn't even want to try and stop the tears.*
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Post by Linx Exotic on Jun 15, 2008 0:19:05 GMT -5
Seria said no more to Dantin. She headed straight out of the room to where Kade was slumped against the wall. Deciding not to try and make some random first move, she asked a question she felt needed asking now. "Kade... What do you think of me?"
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Post by Dantin 'n' Kade on Jun 15, 2008 0:24:20 GMT -5
*Kade looked up at Seria with red eyes and tears still flowing freely down his face.* "I- I love you... but what use is it... you don't care about me... you just use me..." *He finally said what he'd unconsiously known. She did indeed focus mainly on her own pleasure and what she could do to make her self feel good. A horribly crappy trait for someone to have when they were in a supposed relationship with Kade.*
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Post by Linx Exotic on Jun 15, 2008 7:54:22 GMT -5
Seria had come to that realization, confronted it and attempted to surpass it some time before. She decided to voice this now, for lack of a better response. "Kade... I love you back. I'm not trying to use you here, I just... I just do that, I'm really trying not to but I just... Do that. But it doesn't mean I don't love you, Kade, really, I do..." Squatting down on the floor beside Kade, she was finally beginning to realize just how hard this had hit him. "I do care, Kade!"
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Post by Dantin 'n' Kade on Jun 15, 2008 19:36:28 GMT -5
*Kade now looked over at Seria, his red eyes making him look angrier than he actually was.* "Really? I couldn't tell, I mean, you just said you don't have anybody now so what does that tell me? You said you could be with Dantin just as easily so what does that tell me?!" *His voice had gradually risen throughout that and by the end, he was almost yelling.*
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Post by Linx Exotic on Jun 15, 2008 19:39:58 GMT -5
Seria cringed as Kade raised his voice at her. She was unused to having anyone that angry with her; not since her parents seemingly spontaneously threw her out. It wasn't bringing back good feelings or memories, either. To have Kade reject her now would be essentially throwing her out of the house and putting her right back where she'd began on the street. "It tells you that... You spend a lot more time with me, and you... Apparently know how to appeal to me better than Dantin does..." She wasn't quite near tears, but was being gripped more by fear. Sadness could wait for if she was rejected.
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Post by Dantin 'n' Kade on Jun 15, 2008 19:48:53 GMT -5
*Kade just let his head droop now. He didn't have the will to look at Seria anymore, he was just too hurt.* "If you were rooming with him instead of me then that would be a different story. I mean, what about me is so much more likable then about him? Something that would keep us together if you roomed with him instead of me?" *He wasn't even close to yelling now, he didn't have the energy to yell. It felt like he didn't have energy for anything anymore, it was a bone aching tiredness.*
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Post by Linx Exotic on Jun 15, 2008 19:53:26 GMT -5
"Well, I actually don't know the answer to that question, because I haven't roomed with Dantin and don't actually know him all that well because I don't know anyone in the house all that well. What if it were some other girl on the street? That's not a question you can ask with the information available, even..." Seria sighed and looked down at Kade. She was trembling visibly and was feeling increasingly faint. Her paleness showed somewhat even through her fur. "That's me being scared out of my wits."
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Post by Dantin 'n' Kade on Jun 15, 2008 19:57:53 GMT -5
*Kade didn't even bother to look at her, he just let his head continue to hang.* "What have you got to be scared of? You should know that I wouldn't hurt you..." *He said in a low tone. He was surprised a bit that she was actually scared. Didn't she realise that he still loved her, it's just... how could he be with her but not be loved back with the same kind of devotion? He didn't see a way that that would be possible.*
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