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Post by Linx Exotic on Dec 31, 2007 14:39:45 GMT -5
"What am I going to regret for doing something that should have been done three seasons ago?" Archon had to resist a humorless laugh. "I don't deserve to get over it. All that's happened to me, I'm not saying it's all my fault, I'm saying it's definitely not worth living. Especially when I'm not wired to enjoy any of it."
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Post by Raiden, Zahi, Lars and Ama on Dec 31, 2007 18:07:10 GMT -5
Oh don't give me that! There's more to life than misery, and you know it! You're older than me, so you should be able to deal with pain easier than I ever could right now. You've had the bad, no go find the good!
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Post by Linx Exotic on Dec 31, 2007 18:08:37 GMT -5
"Now... Why would I wanna do something like that? I sure don't right now. Don't ask me why, I can't give you an answer. I'm just messed up."
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Post by Raiden, Zahi, Lars and Ama on Dec 31, 2007 18:13:53 GMT -5
Not as much you think you are. I'm not pointing claws, but my dad is SERIOUSLY messed up. I don't even know more than a small fraction of what used to run through his head, or what deeds he's done.
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Post by Linx Exotic on Dec 31, 2007 18:15:26 GMT -5
"I don't think I'm very messed up... Just enough to not want to feel good anymore. No will. No want. No nothing."
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Post by Raiden, Zahi, Lars and Ama on Dec 31, 2007 18:21:26 GMT -5
How do you think my dad feels? There are just four things keeping him from taking the coward's way out; His family, his friends, his honour, and that acursed prophercy. If it wasn't for all that, he'd have died long ago.
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Post by Linx Exotic on Dec 31, 2007 18:22:42 GMT -5
"There are two things keeping me here. Killing myself would be the ultimate failure to the few who actually care about me... And I don't have any sharp edges handy."
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Post by Raiden, Zahi, Lars and Ama on Dec 31, 2007 19:11:21 GMT -5
More beasts than you think care about you! I for one, wouldn't know what to do with myself if I could never see your face again... I mean...
**Amathyst knew she'd said more than she wanted to with that last sentence, so she stopped talking and waited for Archon's answer.**
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Post by Linx Exotic on Dec 31, 2007 19:27:04 GMT -5
"And although I acknowledge that... Consciously, I acknowledge it... At the same time it doesn't really change my feelings. And I feel really bad about that too." Archon had heard it, that was definite, but probably didn't take it as deeply as he might have in another situation.
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Post by Raiden, Zahi, Lars and Ama on Dec 31, 2007 19:30:51 GMT -5
There's always something worth fighting for... Always... Why not fight to be free of your pain and misery? Or fight for others? I... I fight for... Those I believe in...
**Amathyst wasn't sure if anyone had heard the last part, but didn't care if anyone had.**
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Post by Linx Exotic on Dec 31, 2007 19:32:18 GMT -5
"I'm asking myself that right now, coming up with no answer and wondering what's keeping me. It's strange." Archon had heard it easily, but, again, he didn't take it very deeply.
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Post by Raiden, Zahi, Lars and Ama on Dec 31, 2007 19:35:54 GMT -5
Then fight for me... Fight for Linx... Fight for your friends... I'd fight for you if you'd let me...
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Post by Linx Exotic on Dec 31, 2007 19:36:43 GMT -5
"Agh..." Archon pressed the bases of his paws against his forehead. "My mind is not cooperating."
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Post by Raiden, Zahi, Lars and Ama on Dec 31, 2007 19:37:25 GMT -5
Co-operating? with what?
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Post by Linx Exotic on Dec 31, 2007 19:38:42 GMT -5
Archon felt something in him just blocking him. It made no sense. He was trying so hard, not even on his own behalf... "Wanting to live."
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